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Team Bisping

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Were a good bunch here, so i'll be open and hopefully this thread can be for those who want to be open up about mental health issues relating to themselves or family / friends etc.

Mental health still has an unnecessary stigma, we have close friends and family who refuse to acknowledge mental health problems for fear of being judged.

I for one have suffered with mental health issues most of my life, from episodes of depression to issues with social anxiety.

There are still days where I don't want to leave the house, but i've worked through them, with the help of a doctor to mindfulness techniques and support from friends.

We are all on a long journey, a journey no one else can fully understand, we all deal with it in different ways.

This doesn't define me, i'm not too proud or stubborn anymore to not be open about this, I still work very hard to overcome my problems.

My job entails me to get up a stage and present my work regularly, in the background it's killing me, but the sense of achievement once i've overcome the anxiety is amazing but it's not easy.

I've seen first hand , how under funded mental-health institutions are here in the UK and how under educated doctors are in dealing with mental health issues.

So here's a thread, me opening up about my ongoing mental health issues and how it doesn't define me, i'm still fucking awesome at what I do, world-leading in fact (one of my supervisors invented the web ;) ), but i'm just human, and the more open dialog there is about mental health, the better it is for all.

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Hey gilbosh, I'm sorry to hear this and didn't realise you even had these issues. You don't come across that way and I actually like how you come across on here which also throws me off and surprises me.

By admitting this makes you more of a man than me. Doing presentations when you feel this way must be a real struggle as I do presentations and get nervous but not as nervous as you theoretically would based on what I understand about social anxiety disorder.

Regarding depression, that sucks. I have a friend who goes through deep depressions. Not pretending to know what it feels like but try to help my friend in any way I can but I'm no help if that makes sense.

Shit, pm me where you live as I travel all over the uk and would like to buy you lunch (you can bring your girl and I won't hit on her) if we ever get to cross paths.........
 

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Anxiety is a bitch. I envy any person that grows into adulthood with no sense of anxiety. I forced myself to start smoking weed again after being stone-cold sober for five years because of it. Gave me a completely different perspective on the medical marijuana argument.
 

Lord Vutulaki

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Its very brave of you to share this with us OP.

I had a friend commit suicide in HS without ever mentioning things were that bad, I wish he was as brave as you.

If you ever want to experience some sunshine, come to Australia and you are welcome to stay with me and my family.

All the best.
 

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Thanks for sharing bro.
I can relate because I have symptoms of PTSD. I used to have panic attacks when I felt pressure and it also lead me to isolate from the world for a very long time. Also depression, insomnia, super irritability, migraines, and whole bunch other, often I turn to staying super baked all day. My Psychiatrist prescribed me Quetiapine, Clonopin, Risperidone, Buspirone, Trazodone, and Colonopin, which most were used for different purpose but the Docs told me I can use all for anxiety and some for weird thoughts. When I take these, especially Quetiapine, I feel like my brain is dying so I stopped. I also felt that medications made the symptoms lot worse than before I started taking them. I stopped all meds and seeing the Psychiatrist.

I'm able to control everything better now. I've gone through years of holistic (mindfulness, breathing, energy med, etc...) treatment. One thing that helped me the most was psychedelics. Especially Psilocybin. They have an effect of dis-associating certain memories and emotions so something that used to bother the shit out of me and made me worry stopped after I started eating the shrooms. I'm not saying they were the answer to all of my problems but let's just say that it kick started my healing process, or I've gotten my foot in the door at the least. The psychedelics also helped me learn to have compassion for myself, which I felt was the most crucial in healing.

I also want to recommend a book for anyone suffering from mental health issues. It's called Neural Path Therapy by Matthew McKay and David Harp. This book helped me figure out how my brain responds to anger and fear. It also tells you about the Neural Pathways and after I understood that, it was easier to learn new behaviors that can counter all of the negative emotions I've felt.

Now a days, I'm in a pretty good place mentally. I feel a lot grounded compared to few years ago but it was a lot of work to get here, and the work still continues everyday. Shittiest thing about all of this is that it won't ever go away completely. I just have to find better ways to cope with. So it's unfortunate that for some of us, this is the card that we're dealt with but I hope for Everyone (including myself) to keep on working at it. Everyday. and Never stop.
 
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Thanks for sharing bro.
I can relate because I have symptoms of PTSD. I used to have panic attacks when I felt pressure and it also lead me to isolate from the world for a very long time. Also depression, insomnia, super irritability, migraines, and whole bunch other, often I turn to staying super baked all day. My Psychiatrist prescribed me Quetiapine, Clonopin, Risperidone, Buspirone, Trazodone, and Colonopin, which most were used for different purpose but the Docs told me I can use all for anxiety and some for weird thoughts. When I take these, especially Quetiapine, I feel like my brain is dying so I stopped. I also felt that medications made the symptoms lot worse than before I started taking them. I stopped all meds and seeing the Psychiatrist.

I'm able to control everything better now. I've gone through years of holistic (mindfulness, breathing, energy med, etc...) treatment. One thing that helped me the most was psychedelics. Especially Psilocybin. They have an effect of dis-associating certain memories and emotions so something that used to bother the shit out of me and made me worry stopped after I started eating the shrooms. I'm not saying they were the answer to all of my problems but let's just say that it kick started my healing process, or I've gotten my foot in the door at the least. The psychedelics also helped me learn to have compassion for myself, which I felt was the most crucial in healing.

I also want to recommend a book for anyone suffering from mental health issues. It's called Neural Path Therapy by Matthew McKay and David Harp. This book helped me figure out how my brain responds to anger and fear. It also tells you about the Neural Pathways and after I understood that, it was easier to learn new behaviors that can counter all of the negative emotions I've felt.

Now a days, I'm in a pretty good place mentally. I feel a lot grounded compared to few years ago but it was a lot of work to get here, and the work still continues everyday. Shittiest thing about all of this is that it won't ever go away completely. I just have to find better ways to cope with. So it's unfortunate that for some of us, this is the card that we're dealt with but I hope for Everyone (including myself) to keep on working at it. Everyday. and Never stop.
Awesome insightful post.

I'm gonna check out the book You recommended.

This thread is gonna help a few people I bet.
 

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I know it sounds cliche but things DO GET BETTER.

Like I mentioned once before, I had the roughest month of my life back in march. My mom died as we as my best friend. I broke up with my babymomma and I caught a case and got locked up for 2 days while all this was happening. Still.battling the case.

I JUST SMASHED THE HOTTEST GIRL EVER. 10/10.

LIFE GETS BETTER.

Hang in there brothers.
 

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Hey gilbosh, I'm sorry to hear this and didn't realise you even had these issues. You don't come across that way and I actually like how you come across on here which also throws me off and surprises me.

By admitting this makes you more of a man than me. Doing presentations when you feel this way must be a real struggle as I do presentations and get nervous but not as nervous as you theoretically would based on what I understand about social anxiety disorder.

Regarding depression, that sucks. I have a friend who goes through deep depressions. Not pretending to know what it feels like but try to help my friend in any way I can but I'm no help if that makes sense.

Shit, pm me where you live as I travel all over the uk and would like to buy you lunch (you can bring your girl and I won't hit on her) if we ever get to cross paths.........
Thanks man, if your ever on the south coast in hampshire, drop me a PM!
 

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Anxiety is a bitch. I envy any person that grows into adulthood with no sense of anxiety. I forced myself to start smoking weed again after being stone-cold sober for five years because of it. Gave me a completely different perspective on the medical marijuana argument.
Yeah I know so many who rely on weed to calm down the nerves, I used to smoke it a lot when I worked in london, the long days, the stress of so much going on, I craved just getting back to my apartment to smoke a joint and unwind.
 

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I suffer with anxiety too although I am still a really outgoing person.

This is a great thread Gilbosh..I'm gonna leave this here for perspective....It helped me at one stage.


View: https://youtu.be/4UYYzbzGk6s
Thanks for sharing dude, I've bookmarked it and will check this vid out!

I have the same thing, even my partner would describe me as outgoing, even extrovert, but inside, i feel like an introvert, when I go days of social gatherings etc, i have to take a day or two out and just be by myself, play guitar etc.
 

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Its very brave of you to share this with us OP.

I had a friend commit suicide in HS without ever mentioning things were that bad, I wish he was as brave as you.

If you ever want to experience some sunshine, come to Australia and you are welcome to stay with me and my family.

All the best.
Thanks man, i've had people close fall way down, and have committed suicide because they didn't speak up. Because of this, suicide has never been an option, even when i've been at my darkest. I understand the impact it has on families.

One of the reasons i created this thread, talking is good :)

Thanks for the offer bro, appreciate it!
 

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Thanks for sharing bro.
I can relate because I have symptoms of PTSD. I used to have panic attacks when I felt pressure and it also lead me to isolate from the world for a very long time. Also depression, insomnia, super irritability, migraines, and whole bunch other, often I turn to staying super baked all day. My Psychiatrist prescribed me Quetiapine, Clonopin, Risperidone, Buspirone, Trazodone, and Colonopin, which most were used for different purpose but the Docs told me I can use all for anxiety and some for weird thoughts. When I take these, especially Quetiapine, I feel like my brain is dying so I stopped. I also felt that medications made the symptoms lot worse than before I started taking them. I stopped all meds and seeing the Psychiatrist.

I'm able to control everything better now. I've gone through years of holistic (mindfulness, breathing, energy med, etc...) treatment. One thing that helped me the most was psychedelics. Especially Psilocybin. They have an effect of dis-associating certain memories and emotions so something that used to bother the shit out of me and made me worry stopped after I started eating the shrooms. I'm not saying they were the answer to all of my problems but let's just say that it kick started my healing process, or I've gotten my foot in the door at the least. The psychedelics also helped me learn to have compassion for myself, which I felt was the most crucial in healing.

I also want to recommend a book for anyone suffering from mental health issues. It's called Neural Path Therapy by Matthew McKay and David Harp. This book helped me figure out how my brain responds to anger and fear. It also tells you about the Neural Pathways and after I understood that, it was easier to learn new behaviors that can counter all of the negative emotions I've felt.

Now a days, I'm in a pretty good place mentally. I feel a lot grounded compared to few years ago but it was a lot of work to get here, and the work still continues everyday. Shittiest thing about all of this is that it won't ever go away completely. I just have to find better ways to cope with. So it's unfortunate that for some of us, this is the card that we're dealt with but I hope for Everyone (including myself) to keep on working at it. Everyday. and Never stop.
Great post bro, the drugs I have been given in the past range from prozac, zoloft to propananol / diazepam etc. I totally understand what you say about quetipine, I had a close friend on that, turned her into a zombie, just tired, all day, even though her bipolar was less erratic, the side effects were awful, I believe she's on abilify now which she's doing great on!

I'll check that book out, thanks for sharing.

I'm in a similar place, i'm feeling good, motivated but I know I can't rest on my laurels, i need to eat well, stay focused mentally and exercise.

I've started also looking into nootropic's and have found some good ones that can help with mind fog / focus, these have helped also.

Sounds like your doing great bro! Always good to hear positive stories of overcoming mental health issues etc.
 

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Thanks man, i've had people close fall way down, and have committed suicide because they didn't speak up. Because of this, suicide has never been an option, even when i've been at my darkest. I understand the impact it has on families.

One of the reasons i created this thread, talking is good :)

Thanks for the offer bro, appreciate it!
You ever think of suicide ill find out, hunt you down and kick your ass :)

Offer stands man. Come enjoy the sunshine living in England would depress God himself.
 

Team Bisping

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You ever think of suicide ill find out, hunt you down and kick your ass :)

Offer stands man. Come enjoy the sunshine living in England would depress God himself.
haha amen.

Yeah we finally got some sun for a few days! Got all the doors open, it's amazing how much the weather can impact emotions!
 

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Mental health is a tricky thing now a days IMO because back in the past we said "SUCK IT UP, BUTTERCUP" to everyone, which is wrong because there are a ton of people who need serious help and understanding.

But I feel there are still a ton of "mentally ill" people who need to be told to man the fuck up, specifically people with these bullshit anxiety cases. Not saying all anxiety cases are bullshit, but if you have a fear or anxiety about something, you need to face it. If you have anxiety about public speaking or social interaction, you need to force yourself to do it. But now if someone has a "mental illness" we baby them and make sure they never have to face their fears, which is dumb IMO.

I have a few friends who are school teachers and they tell me it's only getting worse. For instance, if a kid has public speaking "anxiety" (and who the fuck doesn't to some degree, really?), he can do his class presentations in a different classroom with only the teacher and his friends in it. wtf?

I feel bad for people with real depression, schizo, bipolar, PTSD, whatever, but there are a lot of dusty lame Urkels claiming mental illness now a days IMO. Sorry for ranting
 

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Mental health is a tricky thing now a days IMO because back in the past we said "SUCK IT UP, BUTTERCUP" to everyone, which is wrong because there are a ton of people who need serious help and understanding.

But I feel there are still a ton of "mentally ill" people who need to be told to man the fuck up, specifically people with these bullshit anxiety cases. Not saying all anxiety cases are bullshit, but if you have a fear or anxiety about something, you need to face it. If you have anxiety about public speaking or social interaction, you need to force yourself to do it. But now if someone has a "mental illness" we baby them and make sure they never have to face their fears, which is dumb IMO.

I have a few friends who are school teachers and they tell me it's only getting worse. For instance, if a kid has public speaking "anxiety" (and who the fuck doesn't to some degree, really?), he can do his class presentations in a different classroom with only the teacher and his friends in it. wtf?

I feel bad for people with real depression, schizo, bipolar, PTSD, whatever, but there are a lot of dusty lame Urkels claiming mental illness now a days IMO. Sorry for ranting
Sounds a little harsh on the first read, but you're absolutely right imo...While I do have legit depression & anxiety (diagnosed and currently taking anti-depressants), I had what I would consider social anxiety and avoidant personality in my late teens (between 16-21). I thought everyone loathed me - couldn't get a job, couldn't make friends, I couldn't even go to a bar or other social place because I had this delusion that everyone was talking bad shit about me and wanted me gone.

At 21 I had enough money saved to backpack Europe for three months. It was the hardest thing I had to do at that time. The fear was huge and I can vividly remember myself shaking on the inside and out. I did it though. I stayed in backpacker's hostels and met other backpackers - people who actually genuinely wanted to get to know me and hang out with me! Like WTF!? Really hit home that all those thoughts were definitely in my own head and that I have some good qualities.

Also made me realise that generally, people are too self-absorbed to give a shit about other people. The thing I said about being too scared to go into bars and such? I realised that I could walk into a bar, stand on a table and yell ''DE DOUBLE CHAMP DOES WOT DE FOOK HE WANTS!!!'' and people will probably look for 2-3 seconds, think ''WTF??'' and go back to looking at their phones or drinking..There was no need to think people hate me because people don't give a fuck.