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Life can be great.
And it can suck major ass.
Since
@Galt had the courage to open up.
I feel I can share a glimpse... i need to vent as well.
I’m at the hospital. 2 hours away from home. I left work yesterday and warned them.
My dad is on his deathbed. He’s got bone cancer and just a few hours ago, they gave him medication to alleviate the pain. For the final stretch.
He’s lost touch with reality recently. Except for a few moments of lucidity he’s not there.
He’s fallen off his bed and hit his head on the floor. He’s got internal cranial bleeding too complicating everything.
Anyway.
Part of me wants to be here. Another wants to gtfo. I feel sad very sad. And shitty. And confused. I never got to really know my father. I didn’t get to see him after my parents divorce. We grew distant with time.
Like Jordan Peterson said, I’ll try to be strong for my sister who is close to him. I’ve started to make arrangements for a funeral service. It’s fucked up but I got no choice. Peterson is right. Gotta be strong. And you can feel shitty and cry too.
My fathers got no money so it’s gonna cost me. Fuck it. He’s my dad. That will be my last gift : a decent funeral.
The only thing I can do in the future is to build a good relationship with my kids and maintain it.
That’s all. I’ve never done this before...
And it can suck major ass.
Since
@Galt had the courage to open up. I feel I can share a glimpse... i need to vent as well.
I’m at the hospital. 2 hours away from home. I left work yesterday and warned them.
My dad is on his deathbed. He’s got bone cancer and just a few hours ago, they gave him medication to alleviate the pain. For the final stretch.
He’s lost touch with reality recently. Except for a few moments of lucidity he’s not there.
He’s fallen off his bed and hit his head on the floor. He’s got internal cranial bleeding too complicating everything.
Anyway.
Part of me wants to be here. Another wants to gtfo. I feel sad very sad. And shitty. And confused. I never got to really know my father. I didn’t get to see him after my parents divorce. We grew distant with time.
Like Jordan Peterson said, I’ll try to be strong for my sister who is close to him. I’ve started to make arrangements for a funeral service. It’s fucked up but I got no choice. Peterson is right. Gotta be strong. And you can feel shitty and cry too.
My fathers got no money so it’s gonna cost me. Fuck it. He’s my dad. That will be my last gift : a decent funeral.
The only thing I can do in the future is to build a good relationship with my kids and maintain it.
That’s all. I’ve never done this before...
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Really sorry to hear mate... Another TMMACER recently lost his father and it was sad to chat to him about it.. I won't name names but it just goes to show we all have our down moments... Keep your chin up friend.Life can be great.
And it can suck major ass.
Since
I feel I can share a glimpse... i need to vent as well.
I’m at the hospital. 2 hours away from home. I left work yesterday and warned them.
My dad is on his deathbed. He’s got bone cancer and just a few hours ago, they gave him medication to alleviate the pain. For the final stretch.
He’s lost touch with reality recently. Except for a few moments of lucidity he’s not there.
He’s fallen off his bed and hit his head on the floor. He’s got internal cranial bleeding too complicating everything.
Anyway.
Part of me wants to be here. Another wants to gtfo. I feel sad very sad. And shitty. And confused. I never got to really know my father. I didn’t get to see him after my parents divorce. We grew distant with time.
Like Jordan Peterson said, I’ll try to be strong for my sister who is close to him. I’ve started to make arrangements for a funeral service. It’s fucked up but I got no choice. Peterson is right. Gotta be strong. And you can feel shitty and cry too.
My fathers got no money so it’s gonna cost me. Fuck it. He’s my dad. That will be my last gift : a decent funeral.
The only thing I can do in the future is to build a good relationship with my kids and maintain it.
That’s all. I’ve never done this before...
There’s not much that can be said that’ll be comforting. After my father died a good friend of mine told me that parents passing is the first real hit we take in life.Life can be great.
And it can suck major ass.
Since
I feel I can share a glimpse... i need to vent as well.
I’m at the hospital. 2 hours away from home. I left work yesterday and warned them.
My dad is on his deathbed. He’s got bone cancer and just a few hours ago, they gave him medication to alleviate the pain. For the final stretch.
He’s lost touch with reality recently. Except for a few moments of lucidity he’s not there.
He’s fallen off his bed and hit his head on the floor. He’s got internal cranial bleeding too complicating everything.
Anyway.
Part of me wants to be here. Another wants to gtfo. I feel sad very sad. And shitty. And confused. I never got to really know my father. I didn’t get to see him after my parents divorce. We grew distant with time.
Like Jordan Peterson said, I’ll try to be strong for my sister who is close to him. I’ve started to make arrangements for a funeral service. It’s fucked up but I got no choice. Peterson is right. Gotta be strong. And you can feel shitty and cry too.
My fathers got no money so it’s gonna cost me. Fuck it. He’s my dad. That will be my last gift : a decent funeral.
The only thing I can do in the future is to build a good relationship with my kids and maintain it.
That’s all. I’ve never done this before...
I was going to pm but it may help others later.....Life can be great.
And it can suck major ass.
Since
I feel I can share a glimpse... i need to vent as well.
I’m at the hospital. 2 hours away from home. I left work yesterday and warned them.
My dad is on his deathbed. He’s got bone cancer and just a few hours ago, they gave him medication to alleviate the pain. For the final stretch.
He’s lost touch with reality recently. Except for a few moments of lucidity he’s not there.
He’s fallen off his bed and hit his head on the floor. He’s got internal cranial bleeding too complicating everything.
Anyway.
Part of me wants to be here. Another wants to gtfo. I feel sad very sad. And shitty. And confused. I never got to really know my father. I didn’t get to see him after my parents divorce. We grew distant with time.
Like Jordan Peterson said, I’ll try to be strong for my sister who is close to him. I’ve started to make arrangements for a funeral service. It’s fucked up but I got no choice. Peterson is right. Gotta be strong. And you can feel shitty and cry too.
My fathers got no money so it’s gonna cost me. Fuck it. He’s my dad. That will be my last gift : a decent funeral.
The only thing I can do in the future is to build a good relationship with my kids and maintain it.
That’s all. I’ve never done this before...
There is a book called "Its OK to Die." It is just as much for families, maybe more so. It can help you work out some of what you are going through.
Some people can't visit a dying loved one. Some can't leave their side. Neither one means you care more or less.
The book helps you understand the dying process and that each person essentially has to do it alone, regardless of who is there or isn't.
If the business side of things (making arrangements) is going to be your duty, don't be afraid to delve in and let it help distract you and/or heal you. The funeral is for the family not the deceased. More expensive doesn't mean more healing. Make sure to discuss with your sister and see what kind of service would feel right to her (small and quiet? Elaborate?) you don't have to ask her directly about your dad's if you think it's too painful for her. Maybe tell her how you want yours and see how she responds/what door that opens.
And be careful of funeral homes overpricing. You can order caskets and have them shipped to the funeral home. If you find a price and mention to the place, they will usually match a price. I don't know your financial status but don't go into debt if you don't have to.
Don't be afraid to ask a friend or relative (maybe a distant one even) to help you, even if just for moral support.
As far as feeling sad and confused, it's normal but go easy on yourself. It's okay to put those feelings aside to deal with later, a little at a time. You don't have to solve it all right now. Try to Focus on one thing at a time.
My pm box is always open, I'm a good listerner.
Life is rough as fuck. My WhatsApp is always open.I was going to pm but it may help others later.....
There is a book called "Its OK to Die." It is just as much for families, maybe more so. It can help you work out some of what you are going through.
Some people can't visit a dying loved one. Some can't leave their side. Neither one means you care more or less.
The book helps you understand the dying process and that each person essentially has to do it alone, regardless of who is there or isn't.
If the business side of things (making arrangements) is going to be your duty, don't be afraid to delve in and let it help distract you and/or heal you. The funeral is for the family not the deceased. More expensive doesn't mean more healing. Make sure to discuss with your sister and see what kind of service would feel right to her (small and quiet? Elaborate?) you don't have to ask her directly about your dad's if you think it's too painful for her. Maybe tell her how you want yours and see how she responds/what door that opens.
And be careful of funeral homes overpricing. You can order caskets and have them shipped to the funeral home. If you find a price and mention to the place, they will usually match a price. I don't know your financial status but don't go into debt if you don't have to.
Don't be afraid to ask a friend or relative (maybe a distant one even) to help you, even if just for moral support.
As far as feeling sad and confused, it's normal but go easy on yourself. It's okay to put those feelings aside to deal with later, a little at a time. You don't have to solve it all right now. Try to Focus on one thing at a time.
My pm box is always open, I'm a good listerner.
Had a grade 10 student do the big jump a couple of years back. Please speak up, I can only speak for myself. Just knowing some people care for you is helpful.
breathe deep and enjoy the little things
Life can feel quite overwhelming but there is a lot of good in the world and inside each of us
I probably don't know shit about this stuff but I am just trying to be positive to myself and others
take care my dudes and dudettes
Life can feel quite overwhelming but there is a lot of good in the world and inside each of us
I probably don't know shit about this stuff but I am just trying to be positive to myself and others
take care my dudes and dudettes
No worries dude, love you. Sufi style. Just like
@sparkuri there’s always a bed and whatever I can provide. Love you guys.
Thank youI was going to pm but it may help others later.....
There is a book called "Its OK to Die." It is just as much for families, maybe more so. It can help you work out some of what you are going through.
Some people can't visit a dying loved one. Some can't leave their side. Neither one means you care more or less.
The book helps you understand the dying process and that each person essentially has to do it alone, regardless of who is there or isn't.
If the business side of things (making arrangements) is going to be your duty, don't be afraid to delve in and let it help distract you and/or heal you. The funeral is for the family not the deceased. More expensive doesn't mean more healing. Make sure to discuss with your sister and see what kind of service would feel right to her (small and quiet? Elaborate?) you don't have to ask her directly about your dad's if you think it's too painful for her. Maybe tell her how you want yours and see how she responds/what door that opens.
And be careful of funeral homes overpricing. You can order caskets and have them shipped to the funeral home. If you find a price and mention to the place, they will usually match a price. I don't know your financial status but don't go into debt if you don't have to.
Don't be afraid to ask a friend or relative (maybe a distant one even) to help you, even if just for moral support.
As far as feeling sad and confused, it's normal but go easy on yourself. It's okay to put those feelings aside to deal with later, a little at a time. You don't have to solve it all right now. Try to Focus on one thing at a time.
My pm box is always open, I'm a good listerner.
I appreciate it
Hey brother Love having you on the forum. As many have said it may be time to cut down on the booze and seek professional help. You may not see a path out from where you are, but your also not in a clear space. Maybe try some motivational stuff like Jordan Peterson or some of the Jocko Willink. For what it's worth I'm praying for you man. You have value even if you can't see it and you're capable of getting where you want to go.
Good to share. Any of the bad stuff in the past right now is irrelevant. Just be there with him and tell him you love him and anything else that comes to you. Your heart will dictate. He wants you to. It will make all the difference. He will absorb what you give. If you thank the caregivers(at the hospital) they will give him extra good attention to him. Peace brother, that's what you can give him and he to you.
Damn Galt, there’s no way around it, life can suck shit and kick the fuck out of you with regret and sorrow over choices you’ve made and the outcome you’re now dealing with.
The question you have to ask yourself is are you strong enough to climb up out of the hole you’ve dug and face the oncoming shitstorm.
Let me answer this for you , it’s yes you are.
You have friends who are seriously concerned for your wellbeing and whether you believe it or not you are a good person. You have a positive effect on your students every day and (ignoring the constant dick pics) you have a positive effect on many of the people here.
I’m glad you reached out when you were down and hope you do again if you ever need to but, no matter what we say, the first step is you accepting yourself and being able to realize that you’re the good man I know you are.
When life comes after you, stab life back. We all know you’re proficient at doing that.
The question you have to ask yourself is are you strong enough to climb up out of the hole you’ve dug and face the oncoming shitstorm.
Let me answer this for you , it’s yes you are.
You have friends who are seriously concerned for your wellbeing and whether you believe it or not you are a good person. You have a positive effect on your students every day and (ignoring the constant dick pics) you have a positive effect on many of the people here.
I’m glad you reached out when you were down and hope you do again if you ever need to but, no matter what we say, the first step is you accepting yourself and being able to realize that you’re the good man I know you are.
When life comes after you, stab life back. We all know you’re proficient at doing that.
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Means a lot mang. Thinking about going back to working 7 days a week, keeps me occupied. And I’ll be sure to reach out, this place is full of awesome people.
