So sorry to read this but so glad you're out. It's awful to be born to a psychopath and my heart both breaks for you and thrills to your real-ass straight killer instinct. You are Not the Motherfucking One and that is not anything anyone can take from you, and your bravery, guts, whipsmart mind and mouth, physicality and your innate defiance are gonna see you right all your life. Love and support your way, MelE5150.
If it helps at all, my father is garbage too. No contact for many years. I bet I'll find him in the White Trash thread, though.