I watched some videos and read some discussion in comments...John appears to have a problem in the throat...Do you know exactly what it is...is it permanent?...can it be fixed/helped?I don't want to see you play a game. Make a video and talk. I want to see if it's worse off your meds.
I have questions. Not making fun of you either. You game? Or do you want me to drop it?
I wish nothing but the best for you john...take care and be as healthy as possible.
side note...you have a thick accent...where do you live?